These past few nights I’ve dreamt about you.
And I wake up with tears in my eyes and a hole in my heart.
I’m realizing I can’t replace you.
I thought I could but I can’t.
And I sit here everyday wishing that every text that came to me was from you.
I’d give anything to be in your arms again.
I remember that last weekend we spent together.
Because I’m reminded by it everyday.
It’s almost been two months.
And every day it has hurt less.
Today I almost texted you. Just to let you know how much I miss you.
But you don’t miss me.
You’re happy without me, and I can see that.
But sometimes I would do anything to just talk to you again.
I really loved you. I still love you. And I would give anything to be yours again.
I miss you, M.
And it just keeps getting harder.
I’m always here for you. xx
I don’t remember the sound of your voice or the smell of your cologne.
I don’t remember the way you laugh or the way you smile.
I don’t remember any of the things you said to me, & to be honest, I don’t remember how I felt when I fell for you But after everything, I do remember how I felt whenever you left.
And your voice by bits of music I sometimes find
And I wonder if I ever really knew you at all.
Some days, I think you’re a monster.
A demon that possessed me for awhile
But most of the time I just miss you.
At times like these when I’m feeling weak
I know you could have me on my knees
Begging for you to come back
Saying please, please, please
Hurt me again.
I don’t mind the pain, so long as you stay.
If I could get you to listen
If you would only give me the time of day
I would try to explain that maybe
We got lost in communication
And I was never looking for you to change a thing.
Because deep down I knew
I was a monster too
And just maybe
All I wanted was an excuse.
I guess I just figured
With all this darkness inside of me
I would rather be hurt by you.